All About Me: The New Me

So as you may have worked out this post is pretty much about me. I won't bore you with the sob story because this isn't the X Factor. About 2 years ago I decided enough was enough of my boring non special life and I made a vow to change what I seen in the mirror every morning. That being said, looks weren't everything because let's face it if they were i would be a dick. I wanted to change how others saw me and how I saw myself, I wanted to change from being a weak minded boy to a man.

The Shit List...

I was a nice guy who always put others first. Where did that get me? Trampled on. I thought people saw my as a great guy but as it eventually clicked into my crazy mind I was only a pushover. I decided to change my perception of the world. It's was once a negative and I didn't like it. I decided to leave my high school life to find a new one. The rollercoaster of a ride landed me in college. This was the birthplace of the new and improved Curtis O'Neill, or so I thought. I wasn't ready for the change. Every fibre of my body said jump but my worries said no. I landed flat on my face and was emotionally vulnerable. One person who will never be named took complete advantage of this and bullied me. Here I was at 16 and still being a bullied little pushover. This annoyed me.

So what did I do?

I realised that I couldn't let all the negatives define who I was. I quickly got rid of that asshole I never named. Soon after I found myself becoming attracted to a girl I barely knew. I'll skip over all the awkward moments (As i will be discussing these later) and jump to my realization. I soon discovered that one other I had to do learn how to date and flirt like an adult. That is a nightmare that I'm still going through. I let the idea of dating consomme my thoughts all day. Life was complex.

This "New me" project that I started began to revolve around to idea of dating and attraction. I became obsessed in becoming the new me and began wrecking my brain in the process. 

Over the next few posts I will begin to break down all the little sections of my complex journey. 

"Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated" - 

Confucius

Keep life complex

Curtis X

As an 18 year old male my life is far from simple. 
I change my mind with every turn I take, I constantly argue with my parent and forget about traveling because it's hard enough to save money as it is. The cherry on the top of the delicious icing that is my life, is that my "love life" is in the gutter. My blog will be all about the complex life of a "Young One" these days and the all the silly stuff we make into a life threatening deal. 

Now a quote to sum things up: "If lifes an ocean, I'm in the deep end" - Krewella.

If you're looking for a blog all about the "Fun" trials of the beginning of adulthood, then stay tuned. 

Keep life complex 
Curtis x